Diesel James.

A few people have emailed me and asked me about the name Diesel and why I would want to name my son a name that will bring back tearful memories.

Here is why: Diesel wasnt just any baby, the first time I walked into his room he smiled at me, took my finger, and watched every move I made while I was in there. He was able to smile in a way that made my day. I watched him lighten up when his parents talked to him, touched him and when his mom sang to him. He had a huge impact on me while I was in Memphis, his situation had a bigger impact. I watched him take his last breath and I witnessed something I hoped I wouldnt have to see while I was there, but because I had invested time with him and his family...he means a little more the "just another baby".

As for James. That was my dad's name. I think it maybe a family name as well. My grandpa's middle name is James, my dad's name was James, and my cousin's middle name is James. I want to keep it going. I have also know my first son will be something James, so why not take two names of two people who were taken too soon, and turn them into something that will make me smile in any situation.

Makes sense to me.