Just Pray.

This is one of those post that I have put off for almost 24 hours, but it is a post that must be written.

Due to a tragic unforeseen event that took place over the weekend Jamie and I are no longer together. Pre martial counselling as stopped, and all means of communication has been stopped. This is nothing that I did. It's basically due to a double life that was being lived, and honesty was not a top priority. If you have watched the news anytime in the last few days you know what I am talking about. That is all I am saying about it and that is all that will be brought up in this post and future posts. I am asking that no questions be asked. I am going to talk to the people that I need to talk to. I do what you each to know that I am healthy and the baby is healthy.

Because of this I now have the biggest decision of my life to make in the next 7 months. This is a decision that will not come over night, but it is one that only myself can make. It is not going to be an easy choice but it is one that must be done. I know that each one of you have advice and want to be there, but I have to do what is best for myself and the baby. Its not about JUST me anymore.

I do ask that if you read this that you pray. That's all I want from everyone. I know that I have professors, mentors, family and friends following this blog and all I want is the continued prayers. Encouragement can be given however I am not interested in "what anyone thinks is best."

This situation is real and it is one that I do not wish on anyone, but it happening and I will find the ways that is best for me to work through it. When you learn that a double life is being lead and honesty was a priority at all the real sets in and only YOU can figure out how to work through it. I have learned to trust and lean on Christ in a whole new way.