Yep.

Its official.
I suck at a few things in life. Some of which I wont change...like working my scheduled shifts, being a daughter, a granddaughter, friend, aunt, and whatever I go by. Sometimes I sucks as all of these things, but when will it change....? Who knows.

However it took a lesson of "every time we make plans something happens, and its usually Target." Last weekend I requested the whole weekend off. I had things going on at school and I was planning on moving to Springfield. Some of it happend. The one thing that didnt was spending the day with my mom...why you ask? Well after saying NO all week to a girl at work about taking her shift....I gave in at the last possiable second....but it wasnt to her. It was to a supervisior that I had to cancel lunch with because I wanted to go to a graduation party. I gave in because in the end what was said to Alice made me look bad, and I couldnt leave Target without a closer, so I gave in....I didnt really give in I got MAD and agreed. In the end, my mom cried, therefore I cried, so this Friday means the WORLD to me. I finally get to see my nephew, my mom and my siblings....for how long I am unsure because we all have lives and things to get done.

So here is what I have learned....

Saying no is a weakness that may NEVER change...said no about serving at a banquet ALL week as well, but still ended up there....
Spending time with my family shouldnt be over taken by my job, but it is...
Making time for myself is NOT happening.
Not having the chance to say goodbye to college friends because I am at work is depressing....
and of course....
Having to tell my grandma who is in the hospital "I love you" through my aunt because I am working all day SUCKS....
However, knowing that she understands means the world to me.

I like my job, in fact I LOVE my job, but I think its time I reprioritze the things in my life....now whenever that happens.....

I will write a new blog.